I didn’t get hurt in the wreck nor did anyone else.
Don’t try to be superwoman: that’s the lesson of the weekend.
I had grand plans of trying to make it back to Oneida for the 11 am service at my church after attending the early service at my brother’s church. I probably could have made it fashionably late if I had been cautious and smart. Instead I was on the side of the road with a defunct car, a policeman, an ambulance, my brother and his girlfriend, and many tears at 11 am on Sunday.
God had his hand on the entire situation though and still does. I wasn’t hurt, and I didn’t hit the car coming towards me. I only spun and hit the ditch a couple of times before I ended up back on the road with a busted tire and quite a bit of damage to the car. Roxie (my car) has been treated kinder, but God used her to shield me from any physical damage.
When I was in high school, I wrote a poem about slowing down. Metaphorically I was speaking of slowing down to enjoy life, but in light of this past weekend, I think slowing down while driving is a good idea as well. If I hadn’t been in such a hurry to be superwoman and fly back to Oneida (good intentions and all), I wouldn’t be driving a rental minivan right now and worrying about Roxie. One lesson I’ve learned is to not rush. If I can’t be part of everything, so be it. God has a plan for each location I’ll be. While I write that last sentence though, I also realize that God has a plan for my accident as well.
It’s hard to say yet what good will come of my accident, but I know God has a plan to take even this unwanted situation and bring glory to his name. Already he’s provided for me through many concerned people and a good insurance company, so I have no doubt he has a plan. For now, I’ll wait on the prognosis, and in the meantime I’ll take life a little slower.
Most of all praise be to God that I am safe and that no one else was involved.
This morning I posted 25 things for which I’m grateful for; this afternoon I’d like to post 25 things I still hope to accomplish/see in whatever time God allows me.
- See all of my family love God again
- Get married
- Have kids
- Finish my Master’s degree (well start…)
- Buy a car from this century
- Catch up on my reading list
- Have a rocking chair on my front porch
- Read the Narnia series to my children
- Visit England again
- Memorize more scripture
- Inspire a student
- See my first sophomore class graduate
- Paint a beautiful picture
- Learn another instrument
- Learn to dance
- Have nieces and nephews
- Dye my hair (bravery needed)
- Live near family
- Crochet a sweater
- Drive a stick shift
- Write a book
- Be a regular exerciser
- Hug a sloth (it’d be fun!)
- Live each day to the fullest
- See Jesus return
On this morning of the completion of my 25th birthday, I would like to make a list of 25 things for which I am thankful God has given me.
- A God who shows clemency
- The promise of Heaven
- A family that supports and loves
- Friends who are real when needed and spoil me when needed.
- Churches who help me grow closer to God
- A cat who adores me
- A job that encourages my faith
- Students who push me to be better
- Books that entertain me
- A healthy body
- Tea to warm me to my toes
- A shelter from the world
- An always full belly
- Clean water
- Electricity (I am blessed)
- Blankets (I really hate being cold)
- A car that runs (most of the time)
- Clothes appropriate for every season
- A conscience
- Past mistakes and diversions from more fatal mistakes
- Numerous Bibles
- An intelligent mind
- 25 years of life
This post is a bit premature considering I haven’t finished the book series yet, but the heart message that God is teaching me is ready to share. It’s not a new lesson, but it’s one I need reminding of often. So many times I ask God what he has planned. I want to know the details of when and how events in my life will play out. Specifically now with my 25th birthday coming up, I wonder if marriage is in my future or if I’m better equipped to serve as a single person. I also wonder if this physical place is where I’ll be for a while or if it’s only a short stop. Through the Above the Line series by Karen Kingsbury, music, and scripture, God is reminding me of his promises.
There are several plot lines within the series’s four books, but one key idea is woven through them all. Bailey Flannigan, the young college student stuck between two guys, wonders if her dream of going to New York to act is really what God has planned for her. Keith and Chase, the movie producer team who take Hollywood by story, wonder many times if the trials thrown at them are a sign that the movie is not God’s plan. Andi, the former missionary kid, wonders if God is really even part of her life at all. Each one of them come to a key verse from Jeremiah 29:11. “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Recently another verse keeps popping up in numerous places of my life. In Romans 8:28, Paul writes, “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.” I know that I love God, and I know that he has called me to be in the place I am in right now. Just the other day, I was talking with a friend about his current situation in life and the part of Ecclesiastes about there being seasons came into the conversation. I am in a season right now where I feel both content and anxiously awaiting. The thing that God keeps reminding me though is that He has a plan that is perfect. I don’t want to step too far ahead of his plan with my wanderings or wonderings; instead I want to wait right here no matter how anxious I may feel about waiting and no matter how often I want to force some action to take place.
Finally, a song was played this morning at church that sealed the deal about my questions and anxieties. In her song “Trust in You”, Lauren Daigle sings about how even when things don’t work out the way she thinks they should, she still trusts God. She trusts that he “know[s] what tomorrow brings” and that “There’s not a day ahead [he has] not seen”. In fact she opens the song with these lines which to me are extremely bold: “Letting go of every single dream/ I lay each one down at your feet”. It’s so true; in order to see God work the most in my life, I have to focus on the season I’m currently living and stop wondering about the future. He has it all under control.
“Guardian angels” and “angels fighting for you” are platitudes often spoken to make us feel better, but I rarely give angels much serious thought aside from the Christmas and Easter story. In Karen Kingsbury’s Angels Walking series, angels become a very real reality.
I just finished the third book of the series where a team of angels is sent to complete missions in order to ensure God’s plan is enacted. There’s always the possibility that the mission will fail and several moments when the mission is derailed in some way, but God’s plan always succeeds. In this particular novel, the angels are trying to ensure the birth and protection of an infant who will grow up to be a great missionary. It takes a while to discover through whom the baby will be born, but the reader knows that all of the main characters are necessary.
The Bible talks in several places about angels. In Psalm 91:11 the psalmist writes that God “will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.” In Hebrews 13:2, we are reminded that by entertaining strangers we might be unknowingly entertaining angels. Other verses talk about ministering spirits, and of course there are the actual appearances of angels scattered throughout the Bible.
Maybe I’ve just been unaware, but I can’t think of any instances where I’ve felt the presence of an angel. It’s possible I have and don’t account for it because it’s not portrayed like the angels in movies and books. In Kingsbury’s novels, the characters are never actually aware that they are interacting with angels, but they do get strange feelings about the angels in disguise. The closest I’ve come to thinking about an angel are the moments when I realize that God worked something out. I attribute it to God, which is probably fine with the angels and God, but maybe God has used angels in those moments to accomplish his purpose.
The only take-away I can take from this is to be kind to everyone because, just like the writer of Hebrews says, we never know when we might be interacting with an angel.
If you want to check out Karen Kingsbury’s books, head on over to her website or your local library. I haven’t found one I haven’t enjoyed. They also make great audio books because they’re usually easy-to-read story lines.
I’d forgotten how exhilarating a bike ride could be! Whew! Even though I wasn’t able to ride my trusty Schwinn (unidentified brake problems), I still feel so powerful after climbing those hills. As I finished though I started thinking about how riding a bike is similar to going through the Christian life.
In Philippians, Paul talks about pressing forward towards the goal of being more like Christ. He admits that he’s not perfect nor has he achieved the goal yet, but he keeps moving forward. (Philippians 3:12-21) When I’m biking uphill, I realize just how out of shape and imperfect I am. My initial reaction is just to get off the bike and walk the hill, but determination to succeed keeps pushing me forward, no matter how slowly I move. It should be the same way in my Christian walk. At times I feel stuck in my faith and feels like I’m trodding uphill in my faith. I get unmotivated to maintain a daily time with God because I don’t feel the emotional connection. Still though I must imitate Paul, push forward, and be disciplined.
When I first started riding farther than to the stop sign a block from my house, I often wanted to quit. Not even my pride to keep up with my friends pushed me to keep going. They’d peddle up the foreboding “Walmart” hill, and I’d stop to walk it up. Once I got to the top and found them waiting, I’d feel insignificant and weak. It wasn’t until I started disciplining myself that I realized the satisfaction of pushing myself up a hill and actually making it. The writer of the book of Hebrews says “For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.” (Hebrews 12:11) In my spiritual life, it may be difficult to get up those few minutes earlier to read my Bible or say no to friends when they want to hang out during church times, but the rewards of being disciplined in what I know I need in order to maintain a strong relationship with God is always worth it just like the feeling after peddling up a large hill.
After writing this, my bike ride seems even more profitable. Now it has not only enriched my physical self but also my emotional and spiritual self. I’m going to have to fix my favorite bike and take some more bike rides. For now though it’s time to rest my muscles. Even God rested after a period of work.